Inside the Mind of THAOTTVO

Today, I told my mother everything I felt about her and what I felt about the problems that were brewing at home. My mother ended up taking my older sister’s side and I realized that her perception of me was manipulated by my sister. She called me disrespectful and some other things. She thinks that I have changed ever since I started dating my boyfriend. She doesn’t want to see my face or my boyfriend’s. I don’t regret anything I said. I just hope that she will take Kevin and Mimi with her instead of leaving them with their dad’s sister. They will hate her if she does. They will feel that she has abandoned them. I don’t want her to turn a blind eye to them like she did to me. She thinks that I can’t survive on my own but I can. She has lost one of her largest support system. I love her dearly but we will never come to an understanding. I have harbored too much inside to forgive her in this lifetime. I am only sorry to Kevin and Mimi because they get the sort end of the stick. I’m sorry that I have to leave and there will be no one they can talk to. I want them to know that I love them very much and that they can call me anytime and if they need anything, I will help to the best of my abilities.

GAH! she makes me so angry. why the hell does she have to start shit, right when my mom leaves. she couldnt wait a month, not even a week. -____- gosh, i wish i could smack some sense into her. its going to be hell until my mom decides to return from Alaska. >:[